My Story
This is my real-life story, broken life, and a broken heart of a single mother. But the tragedies have turned into triumphs in the hands of the Maker.
Nobody in this world can escape life’s pains and problems. My ex-husband divorced me when I was 3 months pregnant with our son while our daughter was a year old. All the efforts and sacrifices in building a family – our house, car, and my academic career in the UK – evaporated into thin air like a bubble burst. Since then, I have been fighting really hard to raise my two children as a single mother.
Unfortunately, my son became very sick and passed away on 30 August 2014 due to liver failure. On that day, I recognized the sovereign Lord, as written in Isaiah 6:1, “In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted.” He is the author and finisher of our life. It was my aha moment that I dedicated my life to Jesus.
“I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.” Therefore, everything that I am doing now is to glorify the Lord. “I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me – the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.” (Acts 20:24) Because of His grace, I am living today, and testifying to you through this book.
A Grieving Heart is Most Loved by God because “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in the spirit.” (Psalm 34:18).
我的故事
这是我的真实故事,破碎的生活,以及一个单身母亲破碎的心。但悲剧在创造者的手中变成了胜利。
这个世界上没有人能逃脱生活的痛苦和问题。在我怀着儿子3个月,女儿一岁的时候,前夫和我离婚了。建立家庭的所有努力和牺牲——我们的房子、汽车和我在英国的学术生涯——都像泡沫破灭了一样蒸发殆尽。从那以后,作为单身母亲,我一直都很努力抚养我的孩子。
不幸的是,我的儿子病入膏肓,因肝功能衰竭于2014年8月30日去世。那天,我承认了至高无上的主,正如以赛亚书6章1节所写的,“当乌西雅王崩的那年,我见主坐在高高的宝座上。” 祂是我们生活的作者和终结者。这一刻我顿时醒悟,我将我的生命献给了耶稣。
“我也将万事当作有损的,因我以认识我主基督耶稣为至宝。” 我决定不为自己追逐任何东西。“我却不以性命为念,也不看为宝贵,只要行完我的路程,成就我从主耶稣所领受的职事,证明神恩惠的福音。”(使徒行传20章24节)因着他的恩典,我活到今天,并通过这本书向您作见证。
悲痛的心有着神满溢的爱,因为“耶和华靠近伤心的人,拯救灵性痛悔的人。”(诗篇34章18节)。
Testimonials
Pastor Dr Bill Wilson
Founder and Senior Pastor, Metro World Child
Li Sze Chow recognizes Jesus in the darkest hours of despair, loss, and grief. She has found her strength in the Lord in every situation. So don’t be surprised with the painful trials of her suffering in her life. Her faith in the Lord has enabled her to walk through and walk out of the valley of the shadow of death, suffering, and disappointment. As a single mother on her own, her perseverance, determination and commitment in fighting for the life of her children is not only commendable, but will encourage everyone of you that read it.
Prof. Ir. Dr. Jimmy Mok
Pro Vice-Chancellor, Springhill and Terengganu campuses, UCSI University
The life experience shared by Li Sze is really amazing which word is unable to describe how much it has impacted me as a reader. I pray that God will use her abundantly to impact other lives through her life and her love for Jesus Christ. She is one of the chosen people by God for His Kingdom here on earth as it is in Heaven.
Reverend Dr Philip Tan
Senior Pastor, Christ Lutheran Church
In the midst of pain and sorrow, Li Sze clings highly to God. This book serves as a testimony of what God has promised to His people in Isaiah 61:3, "To all who mourn in Israel, He will give beauty for ashes, joy instead of mourning, praise instead of heaviness." God has transformed her ashes into something beautiful, like a piece of raw gold, after the refining process, she glitters with the glory of God.
Pastor Eric Mau
English Congregation Pastor, Christ Lutheran Church
This is a story from the heart, we see the display of despair and grace, hope and disappointment, but in the end, the Glory of God triumphs as despair and disappointment are replaced by courage and strength. This beautiful story tells us of how our everyday life is woven into the greater story of God. A story like this will grip our hearts, waking us up to the reality of life with an assurance that this must be God working in the life of ordinary people like you and me.
Assoc. Prof. Dr. Alex Tang
Paediatrician, KPJ Johor Specialist Hosp
Practical Theologian, Kairos Spiritual Formation Ministry
"A Grieving Heart is Most Loved” by Li Sze Chow is a powerful heart rendering testimony of a woman’s indomitable fighting spirit and her faith in God.
Li Sze reveals her most vulnerable moments; sharing her grief and despair, and also her joy and love. She shared her life, children, families, and friends with us in a most intimate way. I was very moved by reading this book.
Pastor Dr Wong Moi Lee
Former English TEE Director, Seminary Theology Malaysia (STM)
Li Sze shares her raw emotions and her vulnerability to glorify God and to help others who are in grief. Truly, it is a remarkable journey of aloneness with many struggles and if God is not for her, her life would have been doomed. As her story unfolds, one cannot help but admire her strong devotion to her two children, which is not often seen in the world today. It is extremely tough for Li Sze as a single
Pastor Jennie Seet
Co-founder, GCC Group of School
Honorary Pastor, Christ Lutheran Church
As I read this book, I remember Mary Magdalene of the Bible, who loved Jesus very much because she had been forgiven much. She had so much humility because she had been loved much. God’s grace is an unspeakably precious reality in Li Sze that has changed her and inspired her great love for God. It is very glaring to me. Her love for God is astounding. Jesus says that in this world, we will have trials and tribulations but we are to be of good cheer for He has overcome the world (John 16:33).
Reverend Francis Ho
English Pastor, Lutheran Church Malaysia
Some of us at Christ Lutheran Church have walked with Li Sze through the time of her anxiety, which words cannot fully express. I knew that the Lord Himself would guide her through those dark hours of tribulation, restore her dignity and destine her for greatness in His Name. With zeal in prayer and ministry, Li Sze has grown in her spiritual walk. Praise the Lord for the grace of transformation from ash to beauty in her.
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